I'm lost in a world of heartache and pain, Never to be happy or loved again, Don't know what i did to deserve this life, I used to have a family my kids and a wife, Now i feel so alone with my tortured brain, With nothing but loneliness and immeasurable pain, I want to end it all and be with you, But thats one thing i know i shouldn't do, Lauren needs me but God it hurts so bad, It's driving me insane and i've failed as a dad, It's not fair because it should have been me, Lying in that grave in the church cemetary, Laurens not going to school she says she doesn't care, She gets no help and that doesn't seem fair, She's 13 now and throwing her life away, But she doesn't listen now to anything i say, She's breaking my heart you should be here, It seems i've lost her as well that's my biggest fear, I'm close to giving up i'm tired and in pain, Now Laurens behaviour is driving me insane, It would be so easy so f/ing easy to do, Not many would care and i'd be at peace with you, I have no family and that feels so bad, So don't come to my funeral and pretend to be sad, In life my family should have been there for me, So no crocodile tears at the church cemetary.